I think too much
I'm back! A lot sooner than I thought... I've had a lot on my mind lately. As graduation creeps closer and closer (32 days!), I'm beginning to wonder if I'm focusing too much on nursing. I'm finishing my applications to begin grad school next year, but there are so many other things I want to accomplish in life. Getting my doctorate has always been near the top of my lifelong goals, but I also want to focus on my painting and art, writing a book, starting a family, and spending time on the things in life that matter the most. I don't want to lose anything, I'm just having a hard time figuring out how to prioritize everything. I know once I start grad school all of my time and energy will be concentrated on nursing, and it scares me to think that so soon after the madness of the last 16 months I will have to give up everything else I love in life once again. Maybe I'm being dramatic... I really hope so. School has always been my first priority (sometimes even above my husband... sorry baby), so in a way I don't feel like I have a choice but to make the next step in my education. I really don't want to put it off, I just want to do everything now. I don't want to put anything off, but that's the reality of life. I know it will still be at least a couple more years before we begin adding little Armstrongs to the mix, since Nick will be leaving in 3 weeks and will gone all of next year.Okay... I feel better now. It's amazing what writing can do for me. As always, once the words are written I realize that I'm anxious and stressed about nothing, and everything will work out the way it's supposed to do. If I'm meant to start grad school next fall, I should have an acceptance letter from an amazing nursing school in the next few months. And if not, then I will take that as the sign to focus on my art.
Don't forget to check out alittlesunshine.tumblr.com... it's probably more entertaining than the ramblings I leave here!
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