#run2015

I started 2015 with one goal- run one race each month.

One half marathon, one 15k, three 10ks, and seven 5ks later, and #run2015 is complete.

I didn't achieve any great times or distances, but that wasn't necessarily my goal. Maybe 2016 will be the year of a sub-25min 5k? Who knows, but here is a recap of the year:

Zoo Run Run 5k, January 24, Nashville
     *not timed


    
Hot Chocolate 15k, February 14, Nashville
     1:28:11 (9:28/mile)

















Friends for Healing 10k, March 21, Franklin
     56:08.6 (9:03/mile)
     2nd place Female 10K - 2 Person Co-Ed Team Top Finishers















St. Jude Country Music 1/2 Marathon, April 25, Nashville
     2:13:57 (10:13/mile)















Beyond the Battlefield 10k, May 23, Brentwood
     F 10k 30-34  3rd 54:56.5 (8:51/mile)














Running of the Bulls 5k, June 20, Winston Salem
     28:23 (9:09/mile)
     2nd Place F 30-34















Music City July 4th 5k, July 4, Nashville
     31:06.1 (10:00/mile)















Urban Runoff 5k, August 29, Nashville
     31:03.2 (9:59/mile)















Franklin Classic 5k, September 7, Franklin
     26:36.59 (8:33/mile)




















The Sara Walker Run 5k, October 4, Nashville
     *not timed












Hammer Down 10k, November 21, Nashville
     1:03:25.5 (10:13/mile)















Rudolph's Red Nose Run 5k, December 19, Nashville
     32:46.0 (10:34/mile)








2015 totals (logged in Runkeeper):

328.2 miles

55:37 hours

30,475 calories


Until next year,


dear little ones: a week away.



My sweet little ones,

I love you so so much, but motherhood is hard. I often dream of some sort of break... a night without baths or stories or bedtime, five minutes without someone wanting a snack, a quiet evening on the patio with a book, a few minutes alone and away from it all.


But the truth is my life is empty without you. From the moment we said goodbye, my heart hurt. I drove away with an ache and longing for you that I sometimes forget is there. Everything seemed too quiet.

It's only a week. But for the last four years, I haven't known a week without you. I've barely known a night without you. A week can feel like so much more than a week, and some days are painfully longer than others. I miss you more every minute, but I hope you're not missing me. I hope you are having the time of your life. More importantly I hope I’ve taught you to feel safe away from me, knowing I will always return with more hugs and kisses than I left you with. No matter the distance, you are always a part of my heart.

love always & forever,
Mommy


dear little ones



my little loves,

I don't write often anymore because there just aren't words for the way I feel about you. I wake each morning undeserving of the endless love you've brought to my life, and I go to bed each night wondering how I can be better for you. I want you to experience the best this world has to offer, and I want you both to be better than you ever thought imaginable. I won't get it right all of the time, and I may not even get it right most of the time, but I promise that everything I do for you is out of sincere love from my heart that grows more and more each day.


Logan, you are such a sweet, compassionate little man. I have no worries for your little sister as long as you are by her side, because you have more concern for her than I could have ever dreamed of. You make sure she is happy and safe, and even sing to calm her when she's upset. You do a pretty great job of looking out for your Mom, too. You are cautious but adventurous, and explore the world safely and with purpose. Your imagination flows in the most magical way. You are inquisitive with an amazing memory, and your smile will always melt my heart.


Adaleigh, you are my little wild child. Always by Mommy's side, and never happier than when we are together. You are incredibly fearless and unpredictable, always keeping me on my toes. You love basketball, shoes, and baby dolls, but nothing compares to the love for your brother. I admire the special bond you have with him as your protector, teacher, and best friend. Your vocabulary grows exponentially every day, and your sweet voice matches your beauty that takes my breath away.




Logan and Adaleigh, you are my world. You make me want to be better in everything I do. I am so proud to call you mine, and I feel blessed to guide you through this life until you are ready to fly free on your own. You are a part of me, and I will carry you with me every where I go. I miss you every minute of every day that I am away. There is no place I'd rather be than with the two of you by my side. I love you in the most overwhelming, joyful way.

Always & forever,
Mama

a few life lessons


My dearest loves,

You are so small and innocent now, but I know the world is waiting for you. Not everything in this world is beautiful; sometimes the harshness of reality can knock you off your feet. I want you to have the courage to spread your wings and soar without me, but I want you to be prepared for what is to come. My hope is that my unrelenting love and a little advice will allow you to grow and succeed. Hold these words in your heart, and know that no obstacle is ever too big to overcome.
  • Middle school and high school are hard. They will challenge you and try to break you in ways you could never imagine, but you will learn so much about life from those years. Don't let them define you. Learn and move on, and know that in ten years most of those people will no longer be in your life.
  • Don't be scared of the unknown; embrace it. You will never move forward if you don't allow yourself to be challenged and learn to tackle the most difficult things head on. No one has ever moved mountains by hiding in the corner.
  • You're not perfect. This was probably the hardest life lesson I ever had to learn. You will make mistakes, and that's okay. Perfection doesn't make us interesting. Our flaws give us character, and usually go hand-in-hand with something we can be proud of.
  • Just because everyone does something one way does not make it the right way, or the easiest way, or the best way. Learn to question and challenge things in a graceful way. Think things through, and share your ideas with confidence. The world can't evolve without change.
  • Your heart will break, but once you put the pieces back together it will be stronger. You will be stronger.
  • Listen to criticism, learn from it, and then shake it off. Never be too good for advice, but stand strong in what you know. And when the time comes, passion trumps everything.
  • Happiness is a skill. You can choose to be happy, but you must also know how to be happy. It is so much easier said than done. Think of the little things that made you smile before you knew the hardships of the world. If we all took a few minutes to enjoy the simplest things that put a smile on our face, the world would be a better place.
  • Don't get caught up in the viscious cycle of negativity. Surround yourself with people that smile, and cherish friendships with those that want to see you happy.
  • As parents we try to set good examples, but we're far from perfect. Realize our mistakes, take note of our flaws, and be better than we ever dreamed of being. You deserve more.
  • Friends can make you or break you. Choose wisely. You don't have to work hard for true friendships. When times are hard, realize who is there for you, who isn't, and who got you there in the first place. Own your own mistakes, but don't forget how important the influences around you are.
  • Even the best friendships can fade away if you let them. Never let someone forget how important they are to you. A few sincere words or unexpected call can go a long way.
  • Don't let a relationship take over your life. You will lose yourself, your friends, and everything that made you who you are long before that person walked into your life. You can never be 100% sure that someone will be around forever, so make sure you can stand on your own two feet without them.
  • Change is good. Be weary of those that always resist change, and even more cautious of someone that doesn't want you to change for the better.
  • Be honest and trusting, but always aware of the intentions of others. Have faith that there are good people in this world, you just have to find them.
  • Think wisely before you let anything become a habit. Habits are easy to make but so much harder to break, so be sure it's something that you want to be part of your life now and always.
I will always want what's best for both of you, and I will always be by your side no matter how hard you try to push me away. We're in this together, for life. There is no one in this world that understands our bond the way that we do, and the love that reaches from my heart straight into yours. I live my life for the two of you, and there will never be a day that my love for you doesn't overwhelm me.

Love forever and always,
Mom

dear Adaleigh (12 months)

"Though she be but little, she is fierce!"

~William Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night's Dream




my sweet girl,

It's hard to believe there was ever a time that you weren't a part of this family. You have brought an energy and excitement to our home that we didn't know we were missing.

 


You are loud and fearless, and never one to be forgotten in a crowd. You have music in your soul and dancing shoes on your feet. You pose for pictures like you were born for the spotlight. There hasn't been a dull moment since you entered our lives.


You were crawling by 7 months and cruising by 9, but despite a few steps here and there you haven't fully embraced walking. It's as if you know that once you step out of our arms, you are no longer the little baby girl we brought home a year ago.

You look more and more like your brother every day, but with an undeniable beauty and grace. You're still less than the 1st percentile on the growth chart, but full of courage and independence. You know just how and when to smile to make anyone's heart melt.
It's hard to imagine there will ever be a boy that loves you more than your brother. He never gets tired of smothering you with hugs and kisses and love. He is the first to protect you, and the last to leave your side. I hope you always cherish the bond you have shared since the day you were born.

When the day comes that you are ready to leave home, I hope you fly with open wings and your head held high. The world doesn't know what awaits them in your petite little frame. I hope you reach for your dreams, and never settle for anything less than what you deserve. You are full of strength and will that will take you far.

Here's to one year down, and a lifetime of joyful memories and beautiful journeys together. Forever and always, you are the most special girl in my life. Whatever life brings or wherever it takes us, you will be a part of my heart forever. I love you, sweet girl.
love always,
Mama

 

 

watch me grow! (adaleigh weeks 25-35)













dear Adaleigh (6 months)

"Let her sleep for when she wakes she will move mountains."
~Napoleon Bonaparte


my sweetest girl,

Those words describe your blossoming personality perfectly. There isn't an obstacle too big or distance too far for your tenacious spirit. You are wild in the best of ways.


It doesn't seem possible that there was ever a time without you in our family. You are a ray of light in our home, and even your brother can't take his eyes off of your beautiful face. We are addicted to you.


You have your mama's looks, your brother's giggle, and a heart for your daddy. I don't know what we did to deserve you, but I thank God every day for bringing you into our lives.


You are a free spirit, and show no fear of the world around you. I hope you never lose sight of who you are and what you hope to become. I pray that you know just how much you are worth in this world.


I hope you know that you can dream; never let anyone think you have to settle in this world. There may be a way that everyone else is doing something, but open your mind and your heart, and lead with courage. You were made for great things, and I will always be here to remind you to keep striving for more.


The doctors worry that you're small, (12 lbs at 6 months!), but they don't realize how much you have packed in your tiny little frame. You are petite, but mighty. I know better than to ever underestimate you. 


You are our most precious gift. Your wide smile and contagious laughter fill every room in our home. No matter how trying the day, or how sleepless the night, one simple look from those beautiful eyes reminds me that it's all worth it. You, my dear, are worth it.


There's something special between a mother and daughter, and I've felt it from the moment I laid eyes on you. There isn't a girl in this world I'd rather be with. No matter how long I hold you in my arms, it is never enough.

There will come a time that our little family isn't enough for all that you want in life. No matter how far you travel, I hope you know that there will always be 3 people in this world waiting behind with a shoulder to lean on. We will protect you, love you, and let you fly free.


We could spend 100 years together, and it would never be enough. You are my sweet sunshine in a world of trial and hurt. You and your brother make this world a beautiful place.

Love always & forever,
Mama