no more counting.
The last 10 days have felt like an eternity. Luckily I have received a letter from Nick everyday, and that is the only thing that keeps me going. Unfortunately it seems that the letters will stop soon and I don't know how I will handle that. In his letter today, Nick wrote that they finally shipped to basic yesterday and apparently he won't be able to write for at least a few days if not longer. He also informed me that our 14-week countdown did not begin until he arrived at basic. So instead of being separated for 14 weeks we will be separated for at least 15 weeks, and I'm starting to think that it may end up longer than that. If there's one thing I've learned about the military, it's that nothing is ever certain.The sergeants like to tell all of the soldiers at basic that their girlfriends and wives will all cheat and eventually leave them, and the last thing I need right now is for Nick to doubt our future together. I've tried to convince him that I would have never made it this far and put up with so much only to leave him, but I guess it's hard to believe when everyone else wants to tell you something different. I know how much he loves me, so I guess I will just have to prove my loyalty and trust one more time.
I wish I could say that things are getting easier, but sadly nothing has changed. Some days are okay, and some days I feel like it's becoming even harder to cope without him. I can't even watch March Madness without getting upset, because I know that it's killing him to have to miss it. I'm becoming an emotional wreck.
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