watch me grow! (adaleigh weeks 25-35)
Posted with Blogsydear Adaleigh (6 months)
"Let her sleep for when she wakes she will move mountains."
~Napoleon Bonaparte
Those words describe your blossoming personality perfectly. There isn't an obstacle too big or distance too far for your tenacious spirit. You are wild in the best of ways.
It doesn't seem possible that there was ever a time without you in our family. You are a ray of light in our home, and even your brother can't take his eyes off of your beautiful face. We are addicted to you.
You have your mama's looks, your brother's giggle, and a heart for your daddy. I don't know what we did to deserve you, but I thank God every day for bringing you into our lives.
You are a free spirit, and show no fear of the world around you. I hope you never lose sight of who you are and what you hope to become. I pray that you know just how much you are worth in this world.
I hope you know that you can dream; never let anyone think you have to settle in this world. There may be a way that everyone else is doing something, but open your mind and your heart, and lead with courage. You were made for great things, and I will always be here to remind you to keep striving for more.
The doctors worry that you're small, (12 lbs at 6 months!), but they don't realize how much you have packed in your tiny little frame. You are petite, but mighty. I know better than to ever underestimate you.
You are our most precious gift. Your wide smile and contagious laughter fill every room in our home. No matter how trying the day, or how sleepless the night, one simple look from those beautiful eyes reminds me that it's all worth it. You, my dear, are worth it.
There's something special between a mother and daughter, and I've felt it from the moment I laid eyes on you. There isn't a girl in this world I'd rather be with. No matter how long I hold you in my arms, it is never enough.
There will come a time that our little family isn't enough for all that you want in life. No matter how far you travel, I hope you know that there will always be 3 people in this world waiting behind with a shoulder to lean on. We will protect you, love you, and let you fly free.
We could spend 100 years together, and it would never be enough. You are my sweet sunshine in a world of trial and hurt. You and your brother make this world a beautiful place.
Love always & forever,
Mama
Parenting is hard.
As I sit cradling my precious little girl with all the love I have, her feverish body burning my chest, unable to sooth her cries, I'm reminded just how hard parenting is.
I remember hearing the words often when I was pregnant with Logan. I ignorantly thought those words of wisdom referred to long, sleepless nights, never ending expenses, and the great lifestyle change that comes along with a first born. I was so very wrong.
No one can prepare you for parenting. You have no idea how it feels to have your heart break into a million pieces when your child hurts and you can't take the pain away... The anguish you feel when one day your 2-year-old no longer wants to go to daycare and you have no idea why he's had a sudden change of heart... The agony you feel when your 7-month-old is tortured with catheters and needles and you can't explain why you can't save her. The never ending worry and fear that consumes your life once you have children.
I really thought Logan's colicky months were the hardest that parenting would be. I couldn't understand that it isn't the lifestyle that's hard, it's the lack of control and inability to protect them from everything and everyone. It's the unknown.
What I know now is that it will get harder. There will be ER visits, broken hearts, mean friends, and lonely nights. I can't even bear to think of watching my kids struggle through the challenges of life, hurting inside and out. I think of everything I experienced to become who I am, and I know that even the best parenting can't protect them from all they will face in the years to come. Life is just not fair.
There is no rule book, no guide, and no answers for all of life's questions. Only the relentless, undying love of a mom for her children. I can only hope it's enough.
dear Logan (2 years)
my dear, sweet Logan,
You are TWO!
From the moment we brought you home, you have filled our lives with laughter and smiles. Your happiness and confidence are inspiring, and I'm so proud to call you mine. The fun is never ending, and my heart grows with every passing day as your mom.
Sometimes I think that I couldn't love you more, and then I wake up the next morning and find that I do. The love you have for your mama gives me a feeling I never knew before I met you. I cherish the feeling of your arms wrapped tightly around my neck, with the weight of your head resting on my shoulder. The gentleness of your fingers wrapped tightly around mine lets me know that this is exactly what life is all about. You are proud of me in a way I never expected, and the smile on your face when you tell every passerby that I'm your mama brings tears to my eyes. You have given me more love than I ever deserved.
I want to capture the sweet sound of your voice as you learn the world around you, the silly songs we sing in the car, the sound of your bare feet running across the hardwood floor, the shrieks and cries when you can't stand the tickling any longer, every word and phrase that flows from your lips, the look of awe and excitement on your face as you discover something new, the way in which your whole body nods along to a purposeful "yes"... It's all moving by so fast and I can't hold on.
Your sister adores you in a way that only a little sister could understand (and you're quite fond of her, too). I watch the bond grow between you every day, and I know that I'm witnessing something magical. I can see the love in your eyes as you practice patience and compassion in every moment you share. You wear your heart on your sleeve. No lock or barricade could protect your sister more than having you in her life.
There aren't enough words to express what you mean to me. There has never been a moment I didn't want to share with you. You make even the most mundane days the best of my life. You will forever hold the key to my heart.
love always & forever,
Mama
2013: year in review
2013 was quite the year. In twelve short months we became a family of four, built a new house, and Nick and I started new jobs. Our hearts grew, we learned patience and forgiveness, and we watched our lives fly by in a blur.We started the year with planning and preparation for Logan's 1st birthday party. Family and friends gathered to celebrate the sweet little boy that had changed our lives forever.
We spent our weekends in the spring and summer celebrating new friends and watching Logan explore the world around him. The days were never long enough, but we enjoyed every minute we had together.
Nick left for annual training in July, and I struggled with the task of working full-time and taking care of a walking, energetic toddler... all while 9 months pregnant.
Logan and I survived, and Nick returned home just 2 days before we welcomed our sweet Adaleigh Rose to the family. On 8.8.13, at 2:22pm, she stole our hearts with a full head of dark hair and big, beautiful eyes.
At the end of September, we finally moved into the house we had fallen in love with over 5 months before. It had space for our growing family and touches that made it feel like home from the moment we walked in.
In October we made our annual trip to Honeysuckle Hill Farm, and left with kettle corn, pumpkins, and memories.
We celebrated Halloween with friends alongside our very own Peter Pan and Tinkerbell. It was storming and cold, but our hearts were warm and full.
We welcomed family any chance we could get. Living so far away from the ones we love the most never gets easier, but we've learned to cherish every moment we have together.
I turned 30 on Thanksgiving and celebrated the only way I knew how... by working. Nick cooked an amazing dinner to share with friends. We spent the weekend decorating, listening to Christmas carols, and visiting Santa at Opryland.
Nick left his career in security in December, and began the adventure of learning IT recruiting. With it becomes hope and possibilities that are sure to make the next year interesting.
We traveled to NC for a short trip in December to celebrate the union of Bob & Carol, and returned to TN quickly to prepare for our first Christmas together, at home, as a family of four. We spent Christmas Eve at church with friends, and started new traditions as we anxiously awaited "Ho Ho" to arrive down the chimney. Christmas lasted for days, as the grandparents arrived for the weekend with more and more presents. We took a short day trip to Chattanooga before it all came to an end.
Like every other day of our lives, 2013 was beautiful chaos. Here's to 2014- the year of no (new) babies!
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